For many years my friends and I have chosen a word for the year, and then do our best to LIVE that word. I always chose very safe words - like 'focus' or 'create'... and then for 2012 I got serious (seriously CRAZY) and chose... "Badassery".
That was the best word EVAH - and I lived it all year long. This has been one badass year. I think every single person should choose Badassery at least once in their lifetime...
Since I enjoyed my word so much this year, I didn't want a 'let down' for 2013. I wanted to keep the momentum going. I thought and thought... and kept getting drawn to the word "fire". For most of my adult life I have felt like there was a flame inside my soul. I can see it, I can feel it. There have been many times that I felt that flame was being dimmed - by myself, by my alcoholism, by other people and situations.
I kept letting other people control my flame.
Instead of accepting someone or something trying to dim that flame, I will fight to keep it burning. I will surround myself with faith in a higher power, sobriety, the love of family and friends, people that will add kindling to that flame, not try to snuff it out. I will not sabotage myself or my flame with thoughts of "I can't" or "I'm not good enough" or "Why bother"...
Watch out 2013 - cuz... this girl is on fire.