My Word... 2013

For many years my friends and I have chosen a word for the year, and then do our best to LIVE that word.  I always chose very safe words - like 'focus' or 'create'... and then for 2012 I got serious (seriously CRAZY) and chose... "Badassery".

That was the best word EVAH - and I lived it all year long.  This has been one badass year.  I think every single person should choose Badassery at least once in their lifetime...

Since I enjoyed my word so much this year, I didn't want a 'let down' for 2013.  I wanted to keep the momentum going.  I thought and thought... and kept getting drawn to the word "fire".  For most of my adult life I have felt like there was a flame inside my soul.  I can see it, I can feel it.  There have been many times that I felt that flame was being dimmed - by myself, by my alcoholism, by other people and situations.

I kept letting other people control my flame. 

No more.

Instead of accepting someone or something trying to dim that flame, I will fight to keep it burning.  I will surround myself with faith in a higher power, sobriety,  the love of family and friends, people that will add kindling to that flame, not try to snuff it out.  I will not sabotage myself or my flame with thoughts of  "I can't" or "I'm not good enough" or "Why bother"...

Watch out 2013 - cuz... this girl is on fire.